Baby E photo

My Husband Took Down The Crib

My husband: Are you ready for a flood of emotions?

Me: Um, yes?

My husband: I took down the crib.

… but, but, but, this is the crib we chose, the safest (hardest) mattress, butterflies and dragonflies, lime green and peach, sky blue and bubblegum pink, hand-painted trees and cherry blossoms, tiny hands clutching fingers, shocks of dark hair unwilling to fall out, rocking, rocking, rocking, why are you still crying, bean?, weight loss, weight gain, breastfeeding impatiently, patiently, first smile at 3 a.m. maybe I can survive this no sleep existence, shushing, stomping, singing, babbles greet the afternoon sun, lullaby lyrics stumbled over, peeing pooping what is that?, rolling, sitting, eyelids fluttering, DON’T WAKE THE BABY, soft soft soft, toes and button noses, rotound bellies longing for kisses, more rocking, snot, reflux, croup, baby monitor giggles, I thought you were asleep, slinging, settling, tiptoeing, first mama, first dada, gnawing teething crying screaming, windows watching, board books, partying at 2 a.m., sleeping until 5 p.m., i missed you, boo, pulling up, jumping down, climbing crashing, crawling in with you hoping to sleep a moment longer …

Me: I wasn’t ready.

Scott: I may remember you saying that earlier, but I didn’t remember you saying that when I was taking down the crib.

Me: {sigh} It’s okay.  It was probably time.

Baby E photo
Tiny E
Baby N photo
Tiny N
E in a Sling photo
This is really where he slept.
Baby bean sleeping on the couch photo
And so did she.
Cat in the crib photo
So maybe I should've had a flood of emotions about my cats instead.
Only photo of a kid in the crib
This is only photo of a kid in the crib that I could find, and of course, Loki's in it.

Okay, maybe I’m just missing my babies as babies and my extra storage container although I probably should be commiserating with the cats.

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