I had a migraine last night so I stayed in and went to bed. I slept 10 hours and during this, I dreamed. I dreamed that I went to the book group I was supposed to attend Wednesday night and I couldn’t concentrate and I wasn’t very nice because my head hurt so much during the dream. I woke up thinking: I did the right thing going to bed. Thanks brain.
I’m back to getting migraines at least once a week off the Topamax. I had to come off it in December after being on it just over a year because I went from the slightly forgetful side effect to memory blackouts. Scott would tell me we had a conversations and I would have no recollection of it at all. The first time I thought it was just marriage confusion, but it happened enough to scare me into seeing a doctor who wanted to do all this crazy testing but I gently suggested we try going off the drug that most people can’t tolerate because it affects their memory. She agreed, and the large gaps stopped although sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever be 100% in the memory department again. Words still come a little slower than I remember. Is going from 34 to 35 years old that bad?
Without the preventative, sometimes I can manage my migraines with over-the-counter remedies and sometimes I’m stuck in the fog of just trying to get done what I must until I can get into bed. I used to be able to use Imitrex to stop the migraines from worsening, but it once made a headache so bad I thought I would pass out so I’m too scared to use it anymore and my doctor agrees. I also can’t use beta blockers as a preventative because my blood pressure and heart can’t handle them — I actually would pass out, which doesn’t seem better except when my headache is at its peak.
My migraines are usually mid-week, which makes me wonder if I get less and less sleep on the weekdays (and more and more stress?) until I trigger a migraine. I don’t think my eating pattern changes much on the weekdays versus the weekends so I don’t think it’s a food trigger. I know allergies trigger my migraines and I can feel the post-nasal drip today. I will be starting with Claritin or Allegra to see if that helps (the latter was meh in the past and the former I haven’t tried yet). Zyrtec made me sleep for 12 hours and act like a zombie for the next 5. However, it’s not just allergies since at the most, I get one less migraine in the cold months.
Today, my muscles are all tense in the there-beneath-the-skin-and-eye, post-migraine stress. Will it come back? Will it take over? When will it completely go away? There’s a young part of me that worries I will always have this headache. This is it – the best it gets. But I’ve had migraines since I was five, albeit more frequently now, so I know the headache will release me soon enough.
In the last year, doctors and friends have suggested seeing a neurologist, but I have been reticent probably because I’ve never had to deal with specialists until all my stomach issues. Then I spent last year with testing and specialists and hospitals. I’m not ready to start again. I’ve also irrationally and unfairly decided neurologists won’t be able to help me. I dislike daily medications and the possible futility of trying anything besides what sometimes works is overwhelming.
I ask: Do you get migraines? What’s worked or hasn’t worked for you?