So today is my birthday. I’m 32 years wonderful.
My birthday present from my husband? He left with the children at 5 p.m. on Saturday and will come home with them this morning.
I lived in this home single and childless for two nights.
And lived I did!
I meandered around the movie store. (Seriously. I took like an HOUR in there. As tweet and facebook replies bombarded me with choices, I realized I need a list. And for the next decade, I know what I’m doing on my birthday weekend.)
- Harold & Maude
- Welcome to the dollhouse
- The Box
- requiem for a dream
- Mozart and the whale
- The squid and the whale
- Before the devil knows you’re dead.
- City Island
- 500 Days of Summer
- Running With Scissors
- Ghost World
- The Good Girl
- Up In The Air
- And Scott’s friend’s advice (CLEARLY): forget the weird stuff and watch on memorium to john candy…Uncle Buck, The Great Outdoors and Summer Rental
I went to the hippie grocery store for dinner and bought all my favorite foods (that were available. like no gooey fifteen-cheese pizza or frosting-in-a-can came home with me.):
I chatted with friends, ate breakfast late and ate dinner out. I snuggled with my dog. (I also may have chatted with my dog and snuggled with my friends but for a much briefer time.)
I miss my children. But I keep telling myself to stop. Because I need the space. This time to breath and talk and listen. On my own schedule. No naps to work around. No children to occupy. No husband to trick into changing a diaper.
I miss my husband. But I fight the urge to call every few hours. To bask in the guilt of his work and my play.
I didn’t ruin the gift.
And when my family comes home, I will happily catch them up in my arms.
Until they annoy me. Or I annoy them.
Then I will think back to these thirty-six hours and be grateful for how little I wasted on mommy guilt.
And I will be able to keep my annoyances to myself and be joyfully WIFE!MAMA!
But for now, happy birthday to me.
For a few more hours.
PS. For my birthday, BlogHer reposted Why Bother Being A Good Parent At All? If you missed it here, check it out there!